god's special sauce

thanks to ais and her penchant for reading other people's blogs, i have come to know about a certain person's fast food epiphany. he asked for a special sauce and had to wait for around 5 minutes to get it. watching, with excruciating pain of course, how others got their orders just like that *snap*.

i'm also waiting for god's special sauce.

i'm worrying, though, about how to get it... you ask for it, of course. "ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find..." and then you pay for it? i suppose... and then wait for it, definitely.

i'm so paranoid that i didn't pay enough. i'm so paranoid that i'm waiting for nothing because i didn't pay enough. i'm paranoid that because i'm not waiting quietly, He'll get pissed off and not give me His special sauce. oh, i'm waiting all right. just a little bit more antsy than usual, a little bit noisier, a little bit more skeptical... (i dare say it.)

but hush.

maybe it's not a matter of how much i paid, but really a matter of having patience. and faith. after all, even at mcdonald's, they take credit. only god knows how much i owe Him already.

and well, i've been known to pay up.

i just have to wait. =)