hooray, anne's back!

To celebrate Anne’s newest blog entry, I will update mine. I only hope she reads it.

NINE LASTS:
9. last place you were: home
8. last cigarette: two Saturdays ago, if non-tobacco ones count. ;)
7. last beverage: water
6. last movie seen: fight club on dvd
5. last call: karl, my daily nightcap
4. last CD played: ash’s intergalactic sonic 7s
3. last bubble bath: Astoria Plaza, Labor Day weekend 2006
2. last time you cried: within the month probably, though I don’t actually remember
1. last alcoholic drink: beer on June 30. gosh, this is bad. I need more substance abuse.

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS:
8. have you ever dated someone twice: two dates in a row, yes. Going back, never.
7. have you ever been cheated on: not technically, no.
6. have you ever cheated on someone: yes
5. have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes
4. have you ever fallen in love: yes
3. have you ever lost someone: yes
2. have you ever been depressed: yes
1. have you ever been drunk and thrown up: yes

SEVEN PLACES YOU'VE RECENTLY BEEN TO:
7. Citibank Center
6. Glorietta
5. Greenhills
4. Cubao
3. UP
2. McDonald’s Panay Ave.
1. One San Miguel Place

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY:
6. eaten breakfast
5. washed up/dressed up
4. prayed the rosary
3. ridden the MRT
2. read some pages of Omerta
1. checked my e-mail

FIVE PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO:
5. Karl
4. May
3. Anne
2. Aissa
1. Leo

FOUR PLACES YOU WANNA GO TO:
4. Paris or Milan
3. Kyoto Costume Institute
2. US (San Fransisco because I had a past life there; New York)
1. UK

THREE FAVORITE COLORS
3. navy
2. carmine
1. mustard

TWO THINGS I WANNA DO BEFORE I DIE
1. have a dress shop
2. travel

ONE THING THAT'S ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW
how I’ve been programmed to become a corporate cog, which Chuck Palanhiuk says is what he finds disturbing about the current educational system. I would like to be programmed to start my own business and run my own life. (which is why I'm a bit envious of anne who has made time to stay at home) Wonder if it’s too late?

The Ingenuity of Karl Lagerfeld

The gauntlets! The gladiator sandals! The thigh-high boots! Sounds crazy, but check out his 2006-2007 Chanel Cruise Collection and the Fall 2006 Chanel Couture collection on style.com –absolutely fabulous!

anxiety

There was a priest who, in a sermon, pointed out one of the many neglected mini-prayers in Holy Mass: “…free us from all anxiety as we wait in joyful hope…” He said that anxiety is a wasteful emotion, and a display of a lack of faith.

I have been anxious the past few days observing the routine in my new job. There are things I see that I’m not sure I like. For example, everyone seems to extend regular work hours. Or, that people aren’t in a hurry to take their lunch hour. In the past, I’ve been so used to moving in a pack, the whole office taking off at the same time. The level of discipline in this place is something that I’m not used to. After taking it easy both at UP and in my first job, I feel nervous about the rigor that I am facing.

This disturbs me because it reminds me that I have a tendency to be lazy.

I see my friends and they work hard. They say things like “they hired you so you have to prove yourself;” or “I know I like spending a lot, so I make sure I earn the money.” So they toil away, and I feel guilty having these feelings of anxiety toward labor and other sacrifices associated with it.

I’m reminded about the last photo shoot I was able to watch on America’s Next Top Model, where the girls had to portray the seven deadly sins. Britany was playing Sloth, and Jay was telling her to think of the things that weigh you down or hold you back. I thought it was a good way of interpreting sloth. In the sinner’s mind, these are the things that justify the sin. And I am guilty of this.

Karl reminds me that so far, I have never let myself down in my endeavors. I’ve been trying to pray for a stronger will and some faith in my intuition so that I don’t keep second-guessing myself even before anything happens.

I am a faggot.

I mean, a FA/GAT. That stands for fashion accessories & garments and textiles, and it is my team at Global Sources. Everything here is part of a system, a well-oiled machine, and I am the new cog.

There are multiple policies dealing with usage of company resources, so I have yet to feel secure using the phone or the internet. Or anything else for that matter. Especially when the environment is always dead quiet and every peep is heard across the floor.

Everyone’s nice though. Well, mostly. My boss, my teammates. Great welcome wagon.

So much for the starmaker machinery’s real faggots.