off balance

i was thrown off balance the moment i woke up today.

my sister came down from the bunk bed and bunched up beside me, saying "i don't have my period yet..." and guess what i say?! "nag-usap ba kami ni karl kagabi? hindi... hindi kami nakapag-usap."

(for anyone who wonders about my sister's predicament, not to worry, she was a good girl the whole month - the best reason for her not to worry.)

BUT. i checked my phone and there was no message from karl telling me he'd call up late or wouldn't be able to call, none to ask me to call or why i haven't called (if indeed i was the one who was supposed to do it.)

and i checked our caller ID if i just didn't wake up when he called, but nothing was registered. i called up his cellphone but of course it was off (he does that when he sleeps). and i couldn't wake up his household either.

there were so many stories to tell last night, and i really wanted to hear from him. so it's 8:30 and he's not awake yet and i have no idea how this day will fly, especially after such a rude awakening at 5 am.

how does one go from a passing message to someone i can't live without?