exposed

admitting vulnerability is never easy, but after saying it out loud, it's that much more fun and frightening. =) like bungee jumping in that new mexico crater 3 city blocks in diameter and as deep as the empire state building. without a cord and loving it. i'm out of control, and i'm in charge at the same time. (someone take the wheel from the crazy girl!) yes, fun and frightening indeed.

and i thought it changes, but i guess it never does. because after two years, anne's stable, giddily happy relationship with jamby still seems oddly precarious to her. the reminder even came just as i was articulating those feelings. and of course, we found faith that it is all good, these blessings.

btw, i'm so happy for anne. and rica. and binky. and may. (these girls, most especially, among others) it's crazy to see everyone get what they always wanted, and what they never had. and all because maybe we've finally gotten into the groove of the cosmos, in sync with God and the stars. i'm so thankful to witness this... and whatever else we may need to learn, i trust that we'll be just as eager, as diligent, as frustrated until we finally get it and be at peace again with the universe.