i'm tired

and yes, i'm complaining.

it sucks to work for something you don't believe in, but then it's too stressful if you genuinely care about your work.

it sucks to not be trusted with certain tasks, but then it's too stressful if everything lands on you. of course, i don't know if they're doing something more important that necessitates all this delegating to one person. it's also a problem to have only one person to delegate things to.

how can i unlearn how to worry? how do i let go of things i have no control of?

two weeks and counting, man...