I need an upgrade

Ever since I started work I’ve been feeling the need to shop. When I stare at my closet, I don’t feel like I have enough stylish clothes. Which of course isn’t true. It’s just that I don’t have the latest trends and that’s what bothers me.

Being in Makati everyday did this to me. I turn green every time I see someone more pulled together than me. The weird thing is, I embrace my casual dress code. Except that in QC, everyone’s a slob beside me, and here, in my own office, there’s a girl who has lots of cute clothes.

Add to that the fact that since I started the expensive daily commute to the new company, big purchases and events have flooded in: the Mango sale, the Topshop sale, Karl’s birthday, Karl’s book launch… (yes I shopped in those sales but still feel deprived.)

What’s worse is that I don’t really want to make the sacrifices to be uber-pulled together. I don’t like wearing heels and pumps because I like walking fast and I like having money in the bank as savings. I can’t blow off my whole salary like my sister does. But I still like the idea of having all the best. So now, I’m in debt and mooching off of my sister’s clothes.

To top it all off I now have eyeglasses. The doctor says that contacts aren’t advisable for me and my daily glaucoma eyedrops. So I chose a nondescript pair “to go with everything I have.” Newsflash: they don’t. I’m so used to my hair accessories, hats, and humongous earrings. Now these glasses fight for attention.

I used to say I’d gladly don some glasses when I was purely a geek (around 10 years old) as a declaration of my personality. But appreciating my face more and more since then, I would like to take back what I said. I’m also used to wearing the big, big sunglasses, so scrounging through all the itty-bitty optical frames sucked. I guess eventually I’m going to find a pair that’ll really suit me: statement glasses that say I’m both beauty and geek. But now, I’m really uneducated about the whole eyewear thing. And broke.